Letting Go of the Fear

I have to write this down for myself all the time to remind myself to let go of the real fear that is holding me back. These past few months have been fully taxing on my fear capacity. I have never felt so paralyzed with it and naysaying and - what's that phrase people use - FRAUD & IMPOSTER SYNDROME. Something so good happened to my life that I was sure it was wrong • or that something would go wrong • or that I wasn't good enough.

I've been trying to let go of the fear. I've been trying to let go of the doubt. I've been trying to fully embrace all that is and all that could be if I would stop being afraid of failure or that I'm not good enough. One of my

favorite yoga teachers wrote about this the other day

and had a great quote from her piece -- 

We are not faking it. We already are the very thing that we are doing.

We can do it. I can do it. Fakin' it 'till you're makin' it is a real thing but what's keeping you back is the feeling that you're not making it even though you clearly are where you are.

So today is about the gratitude that despite the fear, I did something and lived through a big step in my life; but it's also about letting go so the big dreams can be all that much bigger + real.