This year I made a personal Instagram account in an attempt to separate myself as a person from Handmade Habitat. I love the separation but now that I'm fully in on Twitter and Instagram with personal accounts, I worry about oversharing. I worry that every moment of my life will be publicized in some way and there's no going back from it. There's no true being in the moment if every moment is digitally documented, or is there?
Today is Sunday and I had a great day so far. I kind of want to write about what I did, but also I feel like it's just an ordinary day. Though it was a good one, I don't really need to share it with the Internet. It wasn't extraordinary, it was just a feel-good day for me.
I worry that every year, this blog will be the same. Seasons change but what's in bloom doesn't. Is it repetitive? Is it even interesting anymore? I still love the flowers of course, but I can't take my dog on a walk without a camera and what good is that for the two of us spending time together?
I'm not saying I'm going to stop. And even if I share less photos on the blog, I'm sure that I will still be taking them. But maybe it's time to learn to do things for me. To be present with myself and the things I care about. Doing things for me, and not for the Internet.
Maybe it's something about getting older; maybe it's just that we're extremely over connected in 2016, but when I see people taking selfies in the middle of a busy sidewalk, checking in on Facebook every time they get a coffee, or posting non-stop photos and videos of their babies doing nothing, it makes me cringe. There's no quality of life in front of your phone, and the digital rendering of what is supposed to be daily great quality of life isn't really authentic, to use a word that I hate, if what you really look like as a human on the street is a person standing with a phone in the air taking photos of yourself or a person cooing at your baby to get them to take a selfie with you.
I wonder- are we truly so scared to be present with ourselves and our thoughts that we constantly have to share them with other people online? Am I doing that exact thing right now? What do you think?